The Inner Side of Conversion

The Inner Side of Conversion

DELIVERED ON LORD'S-DAY MORNING, SEPTEMBER 15, 1889,

BY C. H. SPURGEON,

AT THE METROPOLITAN TABERNACLE, NEWINGTON.

"I have surely heard Ephraim bemoaning himself thus: You have chastised
me and I was chastised, as a bullock unaccustomed to the yoke: turn You
me and I shall be turned. For You are the Lord my God. Surely after
that I was turned, I repented; and after that I was instructed, I smote
upon my thigh: I was ashamed, yes, even confounded, because I did bear
the reproach of my youth. Is Ephraim My dear son? Is he a pleasant
child? For since I spoke against him, I do earnestly remember him
still: therefore My heart is troubled for him. I will surely have mercy
upon him, says the Lord." Jeremiah 31:18-20.

THERE are turning points in most lives. We go on in a straight line for
a certain distance but suddenly we come to a place where we must make a
choice of roads. All the rest of our journey may depend upon what we do
at those particular points. Character often hinges on a day's resolve.
Every now and then we meet with a man who has seemed hopeful enough
till he has taken a wrong turn. And ever since then we have heard it
said of him that "he has gone bad." That is a common and expressive
phrase for going in the wrong direction openly and boldly. The man was
not right before, but now he is wrong in conduct–heart and life rush
together down a steep place into the sea of ruin.

On the other hand, the world may not often notice it, but the lovers of
the souls of men observe, with great gladness, that men and women are
suddenly pulled up and caused to turn in the right direction. I meet
with many who were once gay and frivolous, who are now, "much tumbled
up and down in their thoughts," as Master Bunyan would have said. And I
mark their regret, their hope, their trust, their brave resolve, their
deliverance by the help of God, and their firm choice of that right
road which they, from now on, follow earnestly. Their way is now
upward, ever upward–a toilsome and rugged way it may be–but a safe
and a right way, which leads them to, "glory and honor and
immortality."

There are many turning points and places of deliberation in the
pilgrimage of life. To some, those turning points come very early in
youth–while they are yet boys and girls they are visited in conscience
and impressed in spirit. And blessed are they if they then and there
seek the Lord. For they shall find Him, to the joy of their whole
lives. To young men and maidens there are stations on the line of life
where they are called upon to decide as to their future road. Again and
again the warning voice is heard, "Change here for holiness and eternal
life."

The lad is to be bound apprentice, or he is to take his first
situation, or for some other reason he is, for the first time, to leave
his father's roof–let him look upon this occasion as one of the most
important seasons of his life. The night before he goes away will be,
to that youth, if he is wisely led, a time for especially committing
himself to God. When, for the first time, facing public life, the youth
may well hear a voice saying to him, "Choose this day whom you will
serve." The whole of his future may depend upon how he begins in the
house of business–the first step may influence every other.

When men and women are about to be married, how much of life then
trembles in the balances! Upon the choice of a partner in life the
fashion of that life may depend. Whether self or Christ–the world or
God–shall be the master motive of the household, may be decided by the
finger which wears the plain gold ring. Too often is marriage entered
on frivolously. And yet, if one could see all the bearings of it, for
good or for evil, one would judge the fullest consideration and the
most prayerful thought to be nothing more than the demand of common
sense on such a subject.

Changes in business, removals of residence, promotion to higher
positions, or serious losses–all make new starting points. Birthdays,
new years, graves wet with tears, or strange events in personal history
have all become turning points in life's ways. Fierce temptations have
also brought the lives of men to pauses and then to onrushes, which
have contin-

ued to give force to all the rest of their existence. To yield at a
certain moment has meant slavery for life. To overcome has meant
eternal triumph.

Joseph's career was determined by that grave moment in which he fled
from the allurement of sin and left his garment in the tempter's hands.
By that flight he prepared his way to become the savior of Egypt and
the benefactor of his father's house. Take heed, my Brother, when you
are tempted. For the next minute may be the pivot of your life. An
interesting book has been written upon "Turning Points in Life," and it
is capable of indefinite extension. According to a man's station and
disposition, those turning points take place at different periods. But
whenever they are before us, they call for special prayer and trust in
God.

There is, however, one turning point, and one only, which will secure
salvation and eternal life. And that is what we call conversion, which
is the first apparent result of regeneration, or the new birth. The man
being renewed, the current of his life is turned–he is converted. Of
this turning point I desire to speak this morning, so far as pain and
weakness will permit.

The text tells us a great deal about this turning–it is wonderful how
clearly it describes it. The Bible must have been written by our
Creator, for nobody but the Lord who created men could know so much
about them. This volume reveals the secrets of all hearts. It unveils
our private thoughts. "The Law of the Lord is perfect, converting the
soul." And that conversion which it works, it describes as none else
can. Every touch is true to nature and marks the hand of One who is
within us as well as round about us. As you listen, may the Holy Spirit
teach many of you what salvation means–may He turn you–and you will
be turned.

In our text we have man at the turning points as God observes him. "I
have surely heard Ephraim bemoaning himself." Then we have man just
after the turning point, when he says, "Surely after that I was turned,
I repented; and after that I was instructed, I smote upon my thigh."
And then, thirdly, we have God viewing man at that turning point,
crying with holy joy, "Is Ephraim My dear son? Is he a pleasant child?
I will surely have mercy upon him, says the Lord."

I pray that I may be enabled, in plain and simple language, to describe
that inner and vital experience with which many of you are well
acquainted but which may, to others, still seem a strange thing.

I. First, here is MAN AT THE TURNING POINT AS GOD OBSERVES HIM. Is not
that a wonderful Word of the Lord–"I have surely heard Ephraim
bemoaning himself? Of a certainty the Lord hears all the sorrowful
voices of men. It may be that nobody else has heard you–you would be
very sorry that they should. But the Lord says, "I have surely heard
Ephraim bemoaning himself." You did not speak, you could not put your
feelings into words–your utterance was a moan, a piteous noise, such
as an animal might give forth–a moaning like that of a cow in pain.

The word here used, if you pronounce it deliberately, conveys its own
meaning by its sound. The Lord hears "surely"–that is to say, He hears
the sense and meaning of our wordless moans–He puts into language that
which no words of ours could express. The Lord understands us better
than we understand ourselves. Concerning the man here described, we
note that he is in a state of great sorrow about himself. He is not
bemoaning the dead but he is bemoaning himself. His moans are not about
his lost money or estate–he may be poor, but this is not his present
grief.

His moans are not about his bodily pains–he may be sickly but his
distress is in his spirit rather than in his flesh. His moans are not
now about the bitterness of his lot, the weariness of his daily toil,
or the oppression of the proud. No, he bemoans himself, himself only.
This is sorrow, indeed. The grief is within. All the water outside the
ship is of small account. It is when the leak admits the water to the
hold that there is danger. "Let not your heart be troubled"–it matters
something if your country or your house is troubled. But to you, the
trying matter is if your heart is troubled.

We read that David's heart smote him–that is an ugly blow, against
which there is no shield. "The spirit of a man will sustain his
infirmity. But a wounded spirit, who can bear?" This is what the Lord
tenderly notes about the sinner at the turning point, that he bemoans
himself. His first and deepest grief is that he himself is in an evil
case. He moans his own sad plight. Ah me, nothing is such a bitter
fountain to myself as myself! My Soul, you are in some respects my sole
misery! You are my very self. And if you are wrong, all is wrong. My
Soul, how is it with you? What am I? Where am I? And where am I going?
Lost! Lost! What have you lost? Alas, I have lost myself! Thus the
Lord, "heard Ephraim bemoaning himself."

This bemoaning was addressed to his God. This is a very hopeful point
about it–he cried to Jehovah, "You have chastised me and I was
chastised." His deep trouble is poured out unto his God. It is a
blessed thing when a man in his

distress turns to his God and not from him. It is well when the
troubled heart cries, "Oh, that I knew where I might find Him! That I
might come even to His seat! I would order my cause before Him and fill
my mouth with arguments."

Is it so with any of you here present? Have you given up running to
your neighbor? Is yours a grief with which no neighbor could
understand? Does it afford you some relief to look God-ward? Does even
your despair turn its almost stone-blind eyes in the direction of the
sun? When you cry and moan, are those cries and moans unto God? Do you
sit alone and keep silent to all else? And do you speak to God in
secret? Then let me assure you that there is hope. I am glad, dear
Friend, because I perceive that whatever bitterness may be in your
heart, there will come a sweet ending to it.

If the vessel's head is toward the Lord, no storm will ever sink it.
You have come to a blessed turning point in your life when you are
driven to address your sore complaints unto the Lord God. It is no work
of mere nature when the heart talks with God. Look at the multitudes of
prayers which unconverted men daily repeat. What dead formalities they
are! They do not speak to God! They repeat a certain set of fine words
to the air, or to the skies. But God is not there. A mouthful of words
every morning and night, uttered without thought of the living God–to
what end are these?

True prayer sees God present and speaks to Him as to a living,
listening Person. Hear how Ephraim spreads his case before God! Come,
Heart, be of good cheer, some great good is coming to you, now that you
are coming to God! If you are speaking to the Lord, though it is only
in sighs and moans, He hears you, and He will answer you, and speak
comfortably unto you.

Notice how Ephraim in the text has spied out his God as having long ago
dealt with him. He tells the Lord that He has chastised him–"You have
chastised me and I was chastised." The man had not before observed the
hand of God in his suffering–but he does now. He lost his wife–he did
not see God in this stroke chastening him. His children were taken from
him–he did not see the hand of God even in that affliction. I see the
suffering man before me–he has been brought low by sickness. But he
has not considered who it is that has weakened his strength in the way
and shortened his days.

His spirits sink, his mind is wretched. He has not yet felt that it is
the hand of the Lord which is heavy upon him. It is a mark that the
careless heart has come to a change, when the man who had not God in
all his thoughts now sees Him in his life and cries, "You have
chastised me." I have hope of that man who sees God's hand, even though
he sees only a rod in it.

In this case, "You have chastised me and I was chastised," would seem
to mean that it was a very sore punishment– he was indeed,
chastised–there was no mistaking the smart. Our heavenly Father does
not play with the rod. When He deals the blow, He means that it shall
be felt. "You have chastised me and I was chastised–I felt it and I
bemoan myself because of it." I may be speaking to some here who are
smarting, even now, under the afflicting hand of God. Let them
acknowledge that hand–turn to Him that smites them and kiss the hand
which inflicts the blow–so shall the rod of the Lord be turned away
from them, and they shall know that in very faithfulness He has
afflicted them.

But the mourner in our text means more than this by his moans–he owns
that the chastening had not set him right. "You have chastised me, and
I was chastised." And that was all. He had smarted but he had not
submitted. He had not obeyed but had still further rebelled. He was "as
a bullock unaccustomed to the yoke." He was like the unbroken calf,
which cannot bear the yoke and will not work in the furrow–which,
being goaded–kicks back at the driver and thus hurts itself all the
more with the goad.

Human nature is restive under the yoke of the Law. Its shoulder will
not endure the pressure of the command. When sin brings sorrow as its
wage, the proud spirit of man is angered and he resents that which God
justly lays on him. In the time of his affliction many a man sins more
and more. Now it may happen that I am speaking to a person here whose
portrait is photographed in this verse. God has chastised you, but all
that has come of it is that you have been chastised– you have not
yielded, you have not repented, you have not made confession of sin.
You have not asked for mercy through the Lord Jesus Christ.

This is a very sad and dangerous state of things. Every chastisement
which ends in chastisement–and produces no salutary fruit–not only
involves solemn responsibility but it casts a sevenfold blackness over
future guilt. He that goes astray over the thorn-hedge of affliction is
not likely to return. May God save us from unsanctified chastisements,
for they are full often the outriders of destruction! "He, that being
often reproved hardens his neck, shall suddenly be destroyed, and that
without remedy."

Ephraim feels this and fears the result of having been thus obstinate
towards God. Was there not grave reason for fear? If the fire will not
separate the dross from the lump of ore, what is to be done with it,
but to cast it away as reprobate? What is the Lord to say to those whom
He has chastised in vain but this–"Ephraim is joined unto his idols:
let him alone"? If the rampant young bullock will not bear the yoke,
bring forth the axe. That which will not bend shall break–that which
cannot be mended must be thrown away.

Yet there is something better than this. The mourner in our text
despairs of all but God. He cannot turn himself and chastisement will
not turn him. He has no hope left but for God Himself to interpose.
"Turn You me and I shall be turned." Lord, You did send a fever–it has
burnt me but it has not melted me! Let Your love do what Your furnace
could not! Lord Jesus, come Yourself and melt this iron heart! Lord,
You have sent death and he has frightened me, but he has not changed
me!

Come Yourself and do by Your life what the fear of death could not!
Lord, I have been subjected to pains and plagues that might have broken
the pride of a Pharaoh, but I have been exceedingly obstinate and have
wickedly stood out against You. Come Yourself, with Your own almighty
Grace and conquer even me! Turn You me and I shall be turned. But I
despair of any other power ever working conversion in me.

Surely, it does not need that I speak with any powerful language to my
dear hearers this morning when I beseech you to make your personal
appeal to the Lord Himself. If you have not yet yielded to the love of
God in Christ Jesus our Lord, and if outward means have up to now
failed–if even the sadness of your life has not been the means of
bringing thought into your heart and repentance into your soul, then
cry to the Lord God and entreat Him by His Holy Spirit to deal with
you. You are driven into a corner–nothing can save you now but the
Lord God Himself. Cry to Him, for you have no other hope.

Pray, "Turn You me, O Lord, for You only can turn me. O Lord, place
Your hand upon the helm of my ship and turn it as You will! Come into
my vessel, O Lord Jesus, for my ship is driven with winds and tossed
with waves! Come You and take supreme command, and be both Captain and
Pilot to me! Turn You me and I shall be turned."

Holy Scripture plainly teaches us that although man is a free agent,
yet the Lord can control his will without destroying it. He can turn
the will and heart by forces which act in perfect harmony with the laws
of the human mind. He can make us as freely turn as if there were no
constraint. And yet the glory of every holy movement and turn shall be
due unto the Lord, alone. My Hearer, you may rightly and wisely pray at
this hour–"Lord, if Your judgments fail, let Your Grace prevail. If
afflictions are too feeble, set Your Omnipotent Grace to work. Turn me
and I shall be turned."

To all this confession, poor bemoaning Ephraim adds another word,
whereby he submits to the supreme sway of Jehovah his God–"For You are
the Lord, my God." Happy is that heart which, in its despair, throws
itself at the feet of its covenant God, crying, "You are the Lord, my
God"! He does as good as say–Man cannot help me. I cannot help myself.
Even Your chastenings have not availed to turn me. Lord, I appeal to
You, Yourself! You are Jehovah–You can do all things. You are my God,
for You have made me. And therefore you can make me new. I pray You,
therefore, exercise Your own power and renew Your poor broken and
deified creature. Fashion me according to Your mind, that I may answer
to Your purposes."

Beloved Friends, I do not feel that I can preach, but I wish my heart
could get at your hearts. I cannot do this–but may the mystic finger
of the Holy Spirit now touch the hearts of any who are awakened and
aroused but not decided. And may they be led to take the blessed step
of casting themselves upon God as He is revealed in Christ Jesus,
humbly saying, "You are the Lord, my God"!

Thus I have dimly described the man at the turning point. And it only
remains to note that all this was done and felt, not in pretense, but
indeed, and of a truth. The Lord says, "I have surely heard Ephraim."
What was said was truly said, so that God surely heard it. That
experience which is not real and not really worked in the soul will
prove to be nothing better than the painted pageantry of a dead soul–a
disguise to go to Hell in. Pretend to no feeling which is not real.
Profess no emotion which is not deeply and truly felt. In all things be
sincere, and most of all be accurate when describing your inner
condition before the heart-searching Jehovah.

II. Secondly, let us hear MAN AFTER THE TURNING POINT. Here you have
the description in the nineteenth verse. It begins with "Surely." Is it
not very remarkable that each of these verses should be stamped with
the hallmark,

and each one bear the word, "surely"? The Lord said He had "surely
heard Ephraim bemoaning himself." And here Ephraim says, "Surely after
that I was turned, I repented."

See, before us, prayer mixed with faith soon answered. Not many moments
after Ephraim had said, "You are the Lord, my God," he felt that he was
turned. He treats it as a matter of fact and speaks of "after that I
was turned." There is a sacred moment in the life of the chosen of God
in which he is turned. I do not think that every man can tell when that
turning took place. But it did take place in the case of every saved
one.

Looking back, he has to look for the fruit of the turning. And that may
be very perceptible, though the secret mystic work may in itself be
hidden. In quickening the soul from its death in sin, there must be a
moment in which the sinner is dead and another in which he lives. The
actual transition from death to life must be instantaneous, though the
signs of it may be gradual. "A point of time, a moment's space," works
the inner transformation. Quick as a lightning flash is the
implantation of the Divine life. The dead man lives at once–the
condemned is in an instant pardoned.

A man must be either condemned or forgiven, and this is a great change.
The Divine life itself must either be there or not be there. And so
there must be a true line over which the man passes, once and for all,
when he proceeds from darkness into light, from death into life. "I was
turned," says he. Many others of us can say, "I was turned." My Friend,
do you remember when you were turned? Do you know your spiritual
birthday and the spot of ground where Jesus unveiled His face to you?
Some of us do, although others do not.

The main point is to be turned. To know the place and time is a
secondary matter. Yet I say some of us know when we were turned. And
here is one reason why we remember it, for repentance came with
turning. "After that I was turned, I repented." The man, when awakened,
cried, "Break! Break! Break, O heart!" But it would not break. He said
to himself, "I long to feel," but he could not feel–his heart seemed
to be as an adamant stone. If he did, for a moment, experience a
melting emotion, it passed away and his goodness was as the morning
cloud, or as the early dew.

But now, after he was turned, repentance came easily. No effort was
required. The heart of stone had turned to flesh and the rock smitten
by the Divine rod gushed with floods of penitential grief. "I
repented," says he, meaning, I changed my mind about a thousand
things–I loved what I had hated, I hated what I had loved. I loathed
what had been called my pleasure. I longed for what I had despised as
being dull and dreary. "I repented"–I felt deep sorrow for sin and I
quit it to follow after obedience and holiness.

Repentance is a sweet and sure evidence of a Divine conversion. He that
is truly turned, turns his face to the wall to weep and pray. You can
not make yourself repent. But when God has changed your heart, you will
repent as naturally as the brook flows down the valley when once its
bands of ice are thawed. "After that I was turned, I repented."

Deep sorrow followed upon farther instruction. The Holy Spirit does not
leave the convert but gives him further instruction. And out of that
comes a sorer regret, a more complete self-abasement. "I smote upon my
thigh," says Ephraim, even as the publican smote upon his breast. Do
you not hear him cry, "Ah me, what have I done? What have I done?" His
conviction was deeper, after he was instructed, than it had been
before. God takes us into His school and He begins to show us the evil
of sin–the great iniquity of rebelling against a God so good, so
kind–against a Law so just, so righteous.

And then we begin to abhor ourselves. Especially does the Holy Spirit
instruct us as to the Person, and work, and love, and Divine Grace of
our Lord Jesus Christ. And this makes us loathe ourselves still more.
We begin to see that there is salvation in none other, but only in the
Lord–and that His salvation by Christ Jesus is to be had for
nothing–a free gift of Sovereign Grace. And that it is given at once
to all who seek the Lord, believing in Christ Jesus, however great
their guilt may be. Nothing makes a man smite upon his breast with a
deep sorrow for sin like knowing the Grace of God as it is revealed in
the suffering and death of the incarnate God.

As a man knows more of himself, more of Christ, more of God, and more
of the hereafter, he becomes indignant with himself and deals heavy
blows at himself. "After that I was instructed, I smote upon my thigh."
Want of knowledge tends to make men hardened, unfeeling,
self-complacent, and proud. But when they are instructed by the Divine
Spirit, then they are ready to inflict wounds upon themselves as worthy
of buffetings and blows. "God be merciful to me a sinner" is a fit
prayer for the instructed–and the lowliest posture well becomes such a
one.

To this deep sorrow there followed shame. Ephraim says, "I was ashamed,
yes, even confounded." This man knew everything before. Now he knows
nothing, but is confounded. Once he could dispute and dispute and
dispute. But now

he stands silent before his Judge. He formerly felt himself quite able
to defend his own cause, but now he stands ashamed. Before he was
turned, he might have raised objections to the Gospel–yes, raised them
by the mile. And if you had answered a legion of them, he would have
summoned another legion to his help.

But now he proposes no defense, the blush mantles his cheek and he
pleads guilty. It is very difficult to bring the sinner where he has
nothing to say. But in this case the man is muddled, confused, ashamed,
silenced–and has neither excuse nor extenuation to offer. He stands
like a convicted felon, who, when he is asked by the judge if he has
anything to say in stay of sentence, lays his hand on his mouth, and,
blushing scarlet, confesses by his silence that he deserves to die.
This is the man with whom Mercy can work her will.

"Well," says one, "you are not painting a very pretty picture." No, I
am not. But I am painting a truthful one. When God the Holy Spirit
brings a man to the great turning point, He empties him, strips him and
lays him low. One of the very first feelings of the new-born life is
amazement, dismay, self-abhorrence, self-despair. Truth requires that
such as we are by nature should be ashamed. It is no mock modesty. We
ought to be ashamed, for we have acted shamefully. The Holy Spirit
makes a man see this.

What the man could once boast of, he could not now mention without
disgust. He could formerly come forth, wearing a brazen forehead, but
now he seeks holes and corners where he may hide his guilty face. He
hangs his head and judges himself worse than the worst. He even wishes
that he had never been born, or that he had been made a dog or a toad,
rather than have been a man. God often brings men down to this
condition in order that they may be on ground whereon He can meet them
in the way of Divine Grace.

Lastly on this point, memory now comes in and revives the reproach of
youth. Memory is a very terrible torture to a guilty heart. "Son,
remember!" is one of the voices heard in Hell. "I was ashamed, yes,
even confounded, because I did bear the reproach of my youth." The
formerly forgetful man now recollects what he used to be in years gone
by. How convenient it is to forget. But how damnable! Forgotten sin
steels the heart and blinds the conscience–and so destroys the soul.

Ephraim had forgotten his green and foolish years when he was in the
first fury of his sinful madness. Do you say to me, "I was sowing my
wild oats then"? I answer, "You were sowing and soon will come the time
for reaping." Go down, now, to the field and see what has come of your
random life! Wild oats are seldom barren. I have known them grow up
into a harvest of unquenchable flames! God has not forgotten your
youthful provocation.

Ah, when memory is awake, it piles huge piles of firewood upon the
fires of remorse and the flame rises to the heavens. It is a great
reproach to a man to have been a rebel in his youth–it shows how
ingrained a traitor he is. I can only compare the sinner with a
quickened memory to one who is traveling across the plains of Russia
dreaming in his carriage and all of a sudden he is aroused by the sharp
bark of a wolf behind him. And this is followed up by a thousand cruel
voices of brutes, hungry and gaunt and grim, all eager for his blood.

Listen to the patter of those eager feet! The howls of those hungry
demons! From where did they come? You thought that your sins were dead
long ago and quite forgotten. See, they have left their tombs! They are
on your track. Like wolves, your old sins are pursuing you. They rest
not day nor night. They prepare their teeth to tear you apart. Where
will you flee? How can you escape the consequences of the past? They
are upon you, these monsters–their hot breath is in your face–who can
now save you?

Only a miracle can rescue you from the reproach of your youth–will
that miracle be worked? May we dare to look for it? We have something
better than a mere hope to set before you. Jesus meets these packs of
wolfish sins. He interposes between us and them. He drives them back!
He scatters them! There is not one of them left! For our sakes He has
borne reproach. He gave His back to the smiters and his cheeks to them
that plucked off the hair–He hid not His face from shame and spitting.
And by this substitution of Himself, He has set His people free. But
till this is seen and known by faith, the man is in a hopeless
state–neither is any in a more horrible condition. He is ashamed,
confounded and crushed with reproach. All this is working a true and
deep work in his soul. Better things are coming.

III. Now we will turn and HEAR GOD AT THIS TURNING POINT. Picture the
poor guilty creature, confounded, covered with reproach, unable to
defend himself in the least degree. And then the God whom he has so
greatly offended comes in and cries, "Is Ephraim My dear son? Is he a
pleasant child?" Does this look like a question? The answer has been
already given in the ninth verse of this same chapter–"I am a Father
to Israel and Ephraim is My first-born."

The gracious Lord sees Ephraim sore with chastisement, spent with
weeping, pale with shame, and moaning with agony. And then his sonship
is acknowledged. He bends over the crushed one and cries, "This is My
son. This is My dear child." How gracious on God's part to acknowledge
the guilty rebel as a son! What did the father do in the parable, when
he saw his son a great way off? He knew him to be his son and he had
compassion and ran and fell upon his neck and kissed him.

God is eager to receive returning prodigals. The Lord as good as says,
"He is My dear son. He is a pleasant child"! The sinner that despairs
of self-salvation is "my dear son"! The sinner who bemoans himself for
his transgressions is "a pleasant child"! How can it be? The heart of
the Father in Heaven has great depths in it, unfathomable by our poor
limited natures. We are told, sometimes, that there is joy in the
hearts of angels over sinners that repent. I do not doubt the fact. But
that is not the truth which the Bible tries to tell us. Holy Scripture
says–"There is joy in the presence of the angels of God over one
sinner that repents."

In whose Presence do the angels dwell? Why, in the Presence of God! The
joy described in the parable of the finding of the lost sheep is the
joy of God Himself over a repenting sinner! When a sinner is smiting
upon his thigh, the Lord God is smiling on him. When he is ashamed and
confounded, God is ready to own him as His dear Son. Oh, the heights
and depths of sin-forgiving, sin-forgetting Grace! See, Beloved, here
is love acknowledging the object of its choice–love confessing its
near relationship to one most unworthy and most sorrowful.

Then behold the same love well-pleased. The Lord does not merely say,
"Ephraim is My son; yes, he is My child." But He calls him, "My dear
son, a pleasant child." A pleasant child! Why, he has been full of
rebellion from his birth! Yes. But he confesses it and mourns it. And
he is a pleasant child when so much holy sorrow is seen in him. He is
polluted with sin–his sins have ruined his beauty and diseased his
soul! Yes, but he cried, "Turn me," and he has been turned–and now, by
God's Grace, he is a pleasant child.

What a marvel that the thrice holy Lord should ever take pleasure in a
sinner! Yet a sinner on his knees is a delight to the heart of the
All-Merciful. A sinner with his eye on the Cross, believing in the Lord
Jesus, is very dear to the Father. I do believe that the great Lord
would rather turn His eyes away from angels than fail to look upon a
weeping pleader, crying, "God be merciful to me." "To this man will I
look, even to him that is poor and of a contrite spirit, and trembles
at My word." O you kings and princes, with all your pomp and glory–you
may knock at the door of Heaven and wait for notice!

O you peers of the realm, you may go your ways and seek great things of
God, but He will no more regard you than the servants at your doors!
But if there is a poor, foul castaway–weeping and bemoaning
himself–let him know that the Lord waits to be gracious unto him. When
a son, a pleasant child, is before the Father, in sorrow and reproach,
the Father's heart and eyes are both with him to bless him. He is a
dear son, he is a pleasant child. He takes him to His bosom, not
because of his goodness, but because of his relationship.

Let me imagine a scene, such as our London homes have often seen. One
of you has a little girl and she has behaved very badly during the day.
Mother has threatened her with punishment for her continued
ill-conduct. The child, in her bad temper, has run away. The evening
comes on and where is Jane? Her brothers and sisters do not know. It is
getting late. Where can she be? Has anybody seen her? No, she is not
hidden away at home–every room has been searched.

In alarm, someone is sent to the police station. Have you seen a little
girl? No, they have not seen a little girl. It gets to be ten o'clock
at night and the matter is very serious. Eleven strikes, like a knell.
"Why don't you go to bed, dear Mother?" "Go to bed! Why, I am her
mother!" and she breaks out with, "My child! My dear child!" Surely a
little while ago she might have been called a good-for-nothing little
chit–one might have been glad to miss the worrying little troubler.
But now Mother cries, "My child! My dear child!"

The clock strikes twelve. The small hours grow into great ages of
grief. Father is troubled–he has been up and down the streets and
searched everywhere. You meet him and you say, "Well, she was, after
all, a very commonplace child and most obnoxious in disposition." "Ah,
you do not know her. Oh, she was such a pretty girl! She had her
peculiarities. But it makes me angry to hear a word against the dear
child." Mother felt that she never knew before how much she loved that
child!

What is that? What? Is the wanderer found? What joy beams from every
face! Could you have imagined that one naughty child could have made
such a stir and caused such delight? Sinner, this is just what happens
about you! Thus

does the great God think of His wanderers and rejoice when He sees them
returning home. When you cry, "Father!" He answers with, "Is he not My
dear son? Is he not a pleasant child?" Love takes delight in repenting
sinners.

Notice, in this case, love in earnest. The Lord says, "Since I spoke
against him, I do earnestly remember him still." Think of that, "/ do
earnestly remember him still"! God in earnest–that is a great
conception! God in earnest over one moaning sinner! God earnest in
thoughts of love, even when He bids the preacher tell the offender of
the wrath to come. He says, Go and thunder at him and let loose the
lightning of the Law upon him–and yet I earnestly remember him with
thoughts of love! Tell him he will be driven into everlasting fire if
he repents not. And yet, in thus threatening him, I do earnestly
remember him still.

Go, Providence, and frustrate his designs! Go, Death, and take away his
child! Yet in all this, there are earnest thoughts of love towards him.
"Since I spoke against him," says God, "I do earnestly remember him
still." These are charming words to me. They thrill my soul. I fear to
handle them lest I brush off their bloom. God is never more in earnest
to save a soul than when He is dealing roughly with it.

How I wish I could put my thoughts into your hearts at once–instead of
having to dilute them by my own words– and then see their strength
watered down as they pass through your ears and your understanding and
at last filter in drops into your hearts! May the Lord put His own
thoughts into your souls by His holy Spirit, that you may know, in some
measure, what His earnest remembrance means!

Notice, next, love in sympathy. Ephraim is bemoaning himself and what
is the Lord doing? He says, "My heart is troubled for him." God's heart
is wounded when our hearts are broken! The tenderness of God is at
work–His very life is stirred when a soul is crying to Him, "Turn me
and I shall be turned"–Jehovah is in sympathy with Ephraim! When the
rebel is moved with repentance, the forgiving Lord is moved with pity!
God Himself repents of the evil with which He chastised the sinner when
the sinner repents of the evil with which he grieved his God. Those are
words which will bear much thinking on–"My heart is troubled for him."

Then comes love in action–"I will surely have mercy upon him, says the
Lord." I am so glad to think that the "surely" is found again in this
place. "Surely" God heard Ephraim bemoaning. "Surely" he said that he
was turned, and now God says, "Surely I will have mercy upon him." The
Lord God puts His hand and seal to it. Sinner, He assuredly forgives
you. As surely as you have been ashamed, so surely does He put away
your reproach. Come to Him by Christ and He forgives you now. The bill
of your debts is receipted–the handwriting which was against you is
blotted out. The weight of your iniquity was laid on Christ Jesus of
old and He Himself carried it away and hurled it into the abyss, so
that it shall never be mentioned against you any more.

"I will surely have mercy upon him, says the Lord." What great mercy,
what full mercy, what eternal mercy, is this! Yield, then, your
stubborn hearts to this immeasurable love. Be captives in the embrace
of compassion. Can you resist the charms of goodness? When God comes
forth with nothing in His heart but love and kindness, mercy and
pardon, flee no longer from Him! Turn at His reproof.

And may this day, even this very moment, be the day of salvation, the
beginning of days to you! Then will we bid them ring the bells of
Heaven, for there is joy today. May the Lord Himself have joy of you!
May He, concerning you, rest in His love and rejoice over you with
singing! O Lord, grant me the joy of leading many to Yourself by this
sermon, through your Son, Jesus Christ and the power of the Holy
Spirit! Amen. Amen. Amen.