Why Am I Thus?

A SERMON DELIVERED ON THURSDAY EVENING, MARCH 14, 1872,

BY C. H. SPURGEON,

AT THE METROPOLITAN TABERNACLE, NEWINGTON.

"I delight in the Law of God after the inward man. But I see another
law in my members, warring against the law of my mind, and bringing me
into captivity to the law of sin which is in my members." Romans
7:22,23.

LAST Thursday evening, as many of you will remember, I addressed you
upon the final perseverance of the saints. I have been greatly
surprised and gratified during the week to learn how many persons found
comfort and cheer from the simple explanation of that doctrine which I
gave you. In fact, on the past two Thursday evenings [PERSEVERANCE
without presumption, #1056, and A persuasive TO steadfastness, #1042]
we have been handling a precept and a promise both relating to the same
matter, though each putting it in a different light. The one admonished
us to perseverance by holding fast–the other assured us of
preservation because we are fast held.

The welcome you gave to these familiar expositions has led me to think
it would be acceptable, especially to such of you as have been lately
brought into the sacred household and may not even know the rudiments
of religious experience, were I tonight to follow up those two
elementary discourses with some little account of the great inward
conflict to which the Believer's life is exposed.

The passage before us tells a portion of the experience of the Apostle
Paul. We all of us concede that he was a most eminent saint. Indeed, we
place him in the front rank. For this reason his experience is the more
valuable to us. If your greatest saints have their inward struggles,
how much more should we expect to have them who have not attained the
same degree of Divine Grace the Apostle did? If he who was not a whit
behind the very chief of the Apostles yet had to say, "When I would do
good, evil is present with me," then you and I, who can only take the
position of babes in Grace, or of ordinary disciples of Jesus Christ,
must not be surprised if we have to bear assaults that surprise us and
enter into struggles that distress us. We must not be surprised if we
are often, by emotional stress, forced to cry out, "O wretched man that
I am, who shall deliver me from the body of this death?"

I shall ask you, therefore, for your personal consolation to notice,
first of all, that the ruling power in the Christian's mind is a strong
affection and, therefore, an intense pleasure in that which is pure and
holy–"I delight in the Law of God after the inward man." Secondly,
there are passions and propensities within the breast of a man which
come into direct conflict with this holy principle–"I see another law
in my members warring against the law of my mind." And, thirdly, that
the discipline involved in this constant hostility, despite all the
fretfulness and irritation it causes, is not without true and
satisfactory evidence of our spiritual welfare. "I thank God through
Jesus Christ our Lord."

I. It may be said of every true Christian that the ruling power in him
delights in the Law of God. The new nature which God has created in
every Believer cannot sin because it is born of God. This is the work
of the Holy Spirit and as such without guile, unblemished,
incorruptible. We are made partakers of the Divine Nature. The Divine
Nature, so far as it is communicable, is given to us when we are
begotten again unto a lively hope by the resurrection of Jesus Christ
from the dead.

We are born not of the flesh, not of blood, nor of the will of man, but
of God. We receive from God a new nature at the time of our
regeneration. This new nature, though it is the younger, compels the
older nature within us to submit to it. It has a struggle, but it gets
the victory–that significant word, "The elder shall serve the
younger," is abundantly fulfilled in the little kingdom within our
souls! It has a long struggling trial before the full subjugation and
there are many harassing rebellions to encounter, but at length, that
which is born of the Spirit shall overcome that which is born of the
flesh and the Divine Nature within us shall vanquish the sensual
nature. The Christian man, because of this new nature implanted in him,
delights in the Law of God. He has no desire to change that Law in any
way whatever.

When we read the Ten Commandments, our conscience approves the
ordinances of God while it reproves our own culpable shortcomings. Yes,
we feel that only God could have drawn up so complete, so perfect a
code. We would not wish to have one single iota, word, or syllable of
that Law altered, though it condemns us! Though we know, apart from the
precious blood of Christ, it would have cast us into Hell and most
justly so, yet with holy instinct, pure taste and righteous judgment we
consent unto the Law that is good. It expresses God's mind on the
difference between right and wrong, good and evil, truth and falsehood,
harmony and discord–and our mind agrees with God's mind.

We perceive it not as Truth established by investigation, but as Truth
all radiant, shining in its own majesty. We would willingly take our
place on Mount Ebal or Mount Gerizim to give our Amen to the curses
pronounced on disobedience, or to hail with solemn joy the blessings
avouched to those who observe and do His Commandments. Nor, Beloved,
would the Christian man wish to have the spirituality of the Law in any
degree compromised. He is not only pleased with the Law as he reads it,
though, as I have said, it condemns him–he is pleased with the very
spirit of the Law.

What if the Law condemns in him an unchaste look as well as an unchaste
action? He condemns that unchaste look in himself. What if the Law
reaches to the heart and says, "You should not even desire your
neighbor's goods, much less should you steal them"? He feels in his
soul that it is sin and that it is a bitter thing in him even to covet
where he does not defraud. He never thinks that God is too exacting. He
never, for a moment, says, "I knew that you were an austere man,
gathering where you had not planted," but he consents to the Law though
it is high and broad, exceedingly broad. Though the thunder, the
lightning and the voices which usher in that Law terrify him, yet the
wisdom, the equity and the benevolence which ordained it resolves this
awe into admiration!

Being born from above–in fellowship with Christ, at peace with
God–his very constitution is in unison with the Law of the Lord. Is
the Law spiritual? So is He. The pact is unbroken, the concord perfect.
I trust full many of you, my Hearers, can endorse this, for, doubtless,
as many of us as have been born-again can bear witness we delight in
the Law of God after the inward man. Again, no Christian desires to
have any dispensation to exempt him from complying with any one of the
Lord's commands. His old nature may desire it, but the inner man says,
"No, I do not wish to get or to give any concession to the flesh, to
have an allowance or make an excuse for sin in any point whatever." The
flesh craves for liberty and asks to have provision made for it. But,
does any Believer need liberty to sin?

My Brothers and Sisters, if it were possible to conceive without
blasphemy that the Lord should say to you, "My Child, if there is one
sin that you love, you may continue in it," would you desire any sin?
Would you not rather say, "Oh, that I may be purged from every sin, for
sin to me is misery! It is but another term for sorrow! Moral evil is
its own curse–a plague, a pest–I shudder at the thought of it"?

It is thought a blessing, in the Church of Rome, that a dispensation is
given to men from certain religious duties. We ask no such favor! We
value not their gifts! Liberty to sin would mean putting double fetters
upon us. A license even for a moment to relax our obedience to Christ
would be but a license to leave the paths of light and the way of peace
to wander awhile in darkness and to exchange the glow of health for
sore distemper and smarting pain. Brethren, I am sure you never did,
and never will, if you are Believers, ask the Lord for permission to
transgress His Statutes! You may have taken leave to do what you did
not know was sinful at the time. There may have been a desire in your
heart after something that was wrong. I grant you that. But the
new-born nature, the moment it discovers its culpability, recoils at it
and turns from it! It could not do otherwise. It cannot sin, for it is
born of God!

The new nature that is in you shudders at sin! It is not its element.
It cannot endure it, whereas before you could riot in it and take
pleasure in it and drink iniquity like water. You ask no dispensation
that you may escape from the Law of God. You delight in it after the
inward man. The new-born nature of the Christian also laboriously
desires to keep the holy Law according to the mind of God. If it were
proposed to any one of us that we should have whatever we would ask
for–if in a vision of the night the Lord should appear to us and say
to us as He did to Solomon, "Ask what I shall give you," I do not think
any of us would hesitate.

I cannot imagine myself asking for riches or honor, or even for wisdom
unless it were wisdom of a far higher order than is commonly esteemed
among the sons of men. But the gift which I feel I should crave beyond
every other is holiness, pure and immaculate holiness! Possessing, now,
an interest in Christ–knowing that my sins are forgiven me for His

name's sake–the one thing I desire beyond everything else is to be
perfectly free from sin and to lead an unblemished life without sin of
omission or sin of commission.

Now, every Christian that has that desire within his soul will never be
satisfied until that desire is fulfilled! And this shows that we
delight in the Law of God after the inward man. Nor is it long before
that desire will be fulfilled. Why, we shall be like He when we shall
see Him as He is–and until we see Him as He is and are like He, we
shall always have restlessness of spirit–and always be crying out for
more Divine Grace and laboring against the evil that is in us, if by
any means we may subdue it. O yes, Beloved, in the fact that this is
what we hope for, this is what we pray for, this is what we fight for,
this is what we would be willing to die for–that we might be entirely
conformed to the mind and will of God–there is evidence that we see
that the Law of God is good and delight in it after the inward man.

This, however, is proven in a more practical way to onlookers when the
Christian shows that the life of God is enabling him to overcome many
of the desires of the flesh and of the mind. Oftentimes, in striving to
be holy, he has to put himself to much stern self-denial–but he does
it cheerfully. For instance, should it happen in business that by using
a very common trick in trade he might gain more profit, he will not do
it if he is a Christian–he feels he cannot do this evil and sin
against his God. Or should the young convert find that a little
divergence from the right path would please the worldly people with
whom he is obliged to associate, he may, perhaps, turn aside in his
weakness, but the new life within him will never be easy if he does.

The inner life, when it is in its vigor, will make him say, "Though I
should lose the goodwill of these people, let me serve my Lord and
Master. I must forfeit my situation, if it comes to that, sooner than I
can do wrong. I must be put even in peril of my daily bread sooner than
I will be found willfully breaking a Commandment of Christ. I cannot do
it." Now, I know many of God's children have often suffered very
severely and have passed through a great many trials and troubles
because they would not flinch from following their Lord. This is one of
the proofs that they delight in the Law of God after the inner man.
When a man is willing to bear reproach, to be scoffed at, to be
ridiculed and taunted as mad for righteousness sake–when he is willing
that men should sneer at him as a hypocrite and accept him as a
Pharisee when he braves the cold shoulder from those whose company he
would otherwise have enjoyed–and all because he must and will follow
the mind and direction of God's Spirit, I say, then, it is then the man
gives proof that he delights in the Law of God!

I thank God there are, in this Church, those who have given that proof
and I pray that you and I, all of us who have received the Divine
Nature, may give constant evidence by using the good at all hazards and
taking up the cross at all risks–that our soul, even if it cannot be
perfect in action–at any rate would be perfect in aim and determined,
by God's help, to cherish a love and desire in all things to do
Jehovah's will. Is there anyone here who is obliged to say, "Well, I do
not consent to the Law of God. I do not delight in it. When I hear it
said, 'You shall not covet,' 'You shall not commit adultery,' 'Remember
the Sabbath day to keep it holy,' I wish it were not evil to do those
things that are forbidden. It is a pity our pleasure and our profit,
our duty and our delight should be so much at variance. I would rather
there were less Law and more license. Those Commandments, especially
those that touch our thoughts and trench on the freedom of our will,
are harsh and unpalatable. I am not content to be bound by them. I
would rather live as I

like."

Well, my dear Friend, I will say nothing more severe to you than
this–you have no part or lot in this matter at all! If you had–if
your heart had been renewed–you would talk after a very different
matter. Whenever you hear persons commending a low standard of
religion, a low standard of morality–whenever you find them
vindicating lax views of right and wrong–you may rest assured that the
spirit that is in them is not the Spirit of the holy God, but it is the
spirit of their sinful nature! Yes, the spirit of Satan may have come
in to make the human spirit even worse than it was before!

But, does your heart delight in God's Law? Is there a charm in that
which is right to your soul? Is there a beauty in that which is
virtuous to your spirit's eye? Do you especially admire the Character
of Jesus because, "in His life the Law appears drawn out in living
characters"? If so, then I trust, dear Friends, you give evidence that
you have been made partakers of the Divine Nature, that you are
regenerate and though there is still evil in you, yet there is the life
of God in you which will resist the evil and subdue it till you are
brought safely to His right hand.

II. Now, secondly, we come to the conflict. Where there is this delight
in the Law of God, yet there is another law in the members, so Paul
says and he seems to me to speak of it in three different stages. He
could see it first and then he had to encounter it and at length, to
some extent, he was enslaved by it, for he says, "bringing me into
captivity."

There is in each one of us a law of sin. It may always be seen, even
when it is not in active operation, if our eyes are lightened. Whenever
I hear a man say he has no propensity to sin, I infer at once that he
does not live at home. I should think he must live a long way from
home, or else he has never been anywhere except in the front parlor of
his house where he keeps his profession. He cannot have gone through
all the chambers and searched them thoroughly, or he would have
discovered somewhere that there is an evil heart of unbelief in
departing from the living God. This is true of the Believer–he has to
cry out against another nature and say, "Help my unbelief."

It is always in the man. Sometimes it is dormant. I do not know whether
the devil ever goes to sleep, but our sinful nature seems, for a time,
to do so–not, indeed, that it is any the less sinful when asleep than
when it is awake. It is just as bad as it can be. Gunpowder is not
always exploding, but it is always explosive. Bring but the spark to it
and soon it bursts out, as though it had been ready and waiting to
exert its powers of explosion. The viper may be coiled up doing no
damage, but it has a deadly virus beneath its fangs. It is still a
viper even when it is not putting forth its poisonous teeth.

There is within our nature that which would send the best saint to Hell
if Sovereign Grace did not prevent. There is a little Hell within the
heart of every child and only the great God of Heaven can overmaster
that mischievous indwelling sin. This sin will crop up when it is least
expected. Generally it breaks forth suddenly, taking us by surprise. I
have known it to my sorrow. I am not going to stand here and make many
confessions with regard to myself. Howbeit I did know a man once who,
in attending a Prayer Meeting, felt his heart much lifted up in the
ways of God. He drew very near to his heavenly Father, held sweet
communion with Christ and enjoyed much of the fellowship of the Spirit.
Little did he think that the moment the Prayer Meeting was over
somebody in the congregation would insult and bitterly affront him!

Because he was taken unawares his anger was roused and he spoke
unadvisedly with his tongue. He had better have held his peace. Now, I
believe that man, if he had been met at any other time–for he was of a
tolerably quiet temper– would have taken the insult without resenting
it or making any reply whatever. But he had been unwarned, therefore he
was unguarded. The very love shed abroad in his heart caused the
animosity he encountered to shock his feelings the more. He had been so
near Heaven that he expected everybody present had thoughts in harmony
with his own! He had not reckoned upon being assailed then. When there
is most money in the house, then is the likeliest time for thieves to
break in–and when there is most Divine Grace in the soul, the devil
will try, if he can, to assault it.

Pirates were not accustomed to attack vessels when they went out to
fetch gold from the Indies–they always waylaid them when they were
coming home–with a view of getting rich spoil worth the capture. If
you have enjoyed a sermon. If you have gotten near to God in prayer. If
the Scriptures have been very precious to you, you may expect, just
then, that the dragon that sleeps within will wake up and disturb the
peaceful calm of your soul–

"We should expect some danger near, When we receive too much delight."
Let us be the most watchful, then, in seasons of tranquility. This evil
nature, you see, will sometimes be exercised as if by jealousy when we
are being refreshed with good. It will certainly be developed when we
are exposed to evil.

The man who congratulates himself because he feels no sinful
proclivities, no unholy thoughts, no impure imaginations, no conceited
ideas, no turbulent passions, had need be reminded of that saying of
old Rutherford–"When the temptation sleeps the madman is wise, the
harlot is chaste. But when the vessel is pierced, out comes that which
is within, be it wine or water." O my Soul, you have only been at rest
awhile because there was not any exciting cause for a time. Put into
the company of godly people and the mind occupied with good things
continually, the bad instincts may sleep. But cast into other society
it only needs a slight provocation, and oh, how soon the evil that
always was within manifests itself abundantly!

There are weeds in almost every soil. If you throw up the soil from 10
or 20 feet deep there will be found the seeds from which they grow. Now
those seeds cannot germinate until they are put in a convenient place.
Then let the sun shine and the dew fall–and the weeds begin to show
themselves. There may be many weeds in our nature, deep down, out of
sight–but should they be thrown up by some change of circumstances we
shall find in ourselves evils we never dreamt of. Oh, let no man boast!
Let no man say, "I should never fall into that particular sin." How do
you know, my Brother? You

may never have been in that position in which such a sin would have
allured you. Beware! Perhaps where you think you are iron, you are
clay. And when you think that the gates are closed with bars of brass
it may be but rotten wood.

With respect to none of us, even the holiest, is there reason to trust
his best faculties, his best desires, his best resolutions! We are
utter weakness through and through and prone to transgressions,
notwithstanding all that God's Grace has done for us. The sin which is
in us, as a taint in our constitution, might easily break out as a
loathsome distemper, spreading over the entire man from head to foot
and spoiling all the character. I pray God it never may! It is
remarkable how sin will show itself in the Christian, even in the
holiest of his duties. Suppose it is prayer. When you feel that you
ought to pray and would draw near to God, do you not find, sometimes,
an unwillingness as if the knees were stiff and the heart was hard?

In prayer, when your soul is led away with thoughts of Divine things,
straight across your soul like some carrion crow flying across a
landscape there comes a bad thought and you cannot get rid of it! Or
perhaps you get through your devotion with much delight in God, but you
have not got out of your little room before an alien pleasure steals
over your mind–a self-satisfaction that you have prayed so well that
you are growing in Grace–that you are rising to the fullness of the
stature of a man in Christ. Is it so, that you come from the chamber of
reverent worship musing on your own importance–meditating your fitness
to occupy a place above the common rank and file of the soldiers of
Christ–or that you might very well take a lieutenant's rank in the
Church of God?

Perhaps, again, you did not feel any liberty in prayer and then with a
peevish fretful temper you will inwardly murmur, if you do not actually
say, you might as well give up praying such prayers as those, there can
be no use in them. So do what you may, or leave undone what you may,
yet still the evil that is within will rise–it will intrude upon you
at some time or other to let you know of its existence. You may bolt
the door and you may fancy that no thief can get in, and begin to take
off your clothes and go to rest while yet the thief is under the bed!
So many a man has thought, "I have barred the door against those
temptations," and, lo, they have been hidden in his soul like the
images which Rachel took that were concealed under the camel's
furniture. Somewhere or other they were secreted where he had not
discovered them.

Take it for granted, dear Friends, and do not doubt it. The Apostle
Paul saw it, so may you if you choose to look. He said, "I see another
law in my members." And this law in his members, he goes on to tell us,
was "warring against the law of his mind." It strove to get the
mastery, but the new nature, on the other hand, would not let it get
the mastery. The old lusts fight and then the new life fights, too, for
there must be two sides to a war. Such is the warfare going on within
the renewed soul. We have known this warfare takes different shapes. At
times it has been on this wise–a wrong desire has come into a
Christian and he has loathed it–utterly loathed it–but that desire
has followed him again and again.

He has cried to God against it. He has wept over it. He has not
consented to it. He fears lest he may have found it sweet or palatable
to him for the moment, but when he has had time for reflection he
shudders at the very thought of giving way to that temptation. And yet
by the restiveness of his own flesh and by the reprisals of Satan that
hateful desire will come up and up and up again! He will hear it baying
behind him like a bloodhound following his prey and sometimes it will
take a leap and grip him by the throat and cast him down. It will be as
much as that poor man can do to keep down that ferocious temptation
that has arisen in his spirit.

I can bear witness that such warfare is a very terrible ordeal, for it
sometimes lasts for days, and weeks and months together. I have known
thoughtful Christians who have been harassed with doubts which have
been suggested about the Inspiration of Scripture; about the deity of
our Lord; about the sureness of the Covenant of Grace or some other
fundamental doctrine of our most holy faith. Or it may even be the
temptation has been to blasphemies which the Believer has abhorred from
his very soul. Yet the more bitterly he has detested it the more
relentlessly it has pursued him. If he drives it away, it returns with
redoubled force.

"Is it true?" "Is it so?" Maybe a hideous sentiment is wrapped up in a
neat epigram and then it will haunt the memory, and he will strive in
vain to dislodge it. He would gladly hurl the thought and the words
that clothe the thought into the bottomless pit. Out, cursed specter,
he will cry! Back like the ghost of one's own crimes it comes. From
where do these evils come? May they sometimes be traced to Satan? Yes,
but most commonly temptation derives its strength, as well as its
opportunity, from the moods or habits to which our own constitution is
prone. In the discharge of

public duties, when straining every nerve to serve the Lord, we may
meet with men whose temper acts on our temper to stir up the bile and
make us think evil of those to whom we are bent on doing good.

In the peaceful shades of retirement which wise men seek out as a
relief from the distractions of society, what strange fancies and
monstrous vagaries will often come into the heart and confuse the
brain. Or, sad to tell, in the walks of study where thoughtful men set
out reverently to enquire into the counsels of God, how frequently have
they been lured from the open paths to trespass on dangerous ground–to
lose themselves in labyrinths, to leave the footsteps of the flock–
and so to become giddy and high-minded. Anywhere, everywhere we are
challenged to fight–and we must give battle to the sin that besets us.

But, the war carried on by this evil nature is not always by the
continual besieging of the soul. At times it tries to take us by
assault. This is a favorite mode of warfare within our own corrupt
heart. When we are off guard, up it will come and attack us! And as I
have said before, we are apt to be off our guard when we have been
brought up into the high mountain apart–when have been near the Lord.
In that exalted sphere of communion we have not thought of the devil.
His existence has not come across our mind–but when we go down, again,
into the plain, we soon find that he is still living, still distressing
our Brothers and Sisters–still lying in wait to ensnare us.

For this cause our experience should quicken our sympathy. Full many a
Christian has been surprised into a sin for which he was to be greatly
blamed, but for which he ought not to be condemned by his fellow
Christians with so much severity. They ought to condemn the sin, but to
remember, themselves, lest they also should be tempted. Many a man has
been good because he had not a chance of being bad, and, I believe,
many a professing Christian has stood because the road did not happen
to be very rough and there was not much to be gained by idling down. We
do not judge each other as God does. He knows the infirmities of His
dear children. While He does not make excuses for their sin–He is too
pure and holy for that–yet, having blotted out their sins through the
Atonement of Christ Jesus, He does not cast them off and turn them out
of fellowship, as sometimes His people do their poor Brethren who may,
after all, be as true children as they are themselves and have as much
real love to their Father.

This evil nature, when it is warring, laughs at our own resolutions and
mocks our own attempts to put it down. It must be warred against by
Divine Grace! No arm but the Almighty arm can overcome our natural
corruption. Like the leviathan it laughs at the spear! It counts it but
as rotten wood. You cannot come at a besetting sin as you would like.
At times you fancy, "I'll wound it to its deadly hurt," and in the very
act of wounding one sin you are calling another into play! Many a man
has tried to overcome his propensity to faintheartedness and he has run
into presumption. Some have tried to be less profuse in their
expenditure and they have become penurious. Some have said, "I will no
more be proud," and then they have become mean-spirited.

I have known some that were so stern for the Truth of God that they
became bigoted. They have afterwards become latitudinarian and hold the
Truth with so loose a hand that their constancy could hardly be relied
on. Look straight on and "do the duty that next lies before you." It is
no easy thing, believe me, to defend yourself from the surprises of
sin. It is a thing impossible unless God who created the new nature
shall come to its rescue–shall feed it with the Bread of Heaven, shall
give it water out of the Rock of Ages–and lead it on its way to the
goodly land where the Canaanite shall never be and where our soul shall
feast on milk and honey.

I must not linger on this point, but pass on to notice the next. It is
a sadder one. The Apostle said this warring brought him into captivity
to the law of sin. What does he mean by this? I do not think he means
he wandered into open flagrant immoralities. No observer may have
noticed any fault in the Apostle's character. He could see it in
himself and he saw flaws in his life where we are not able to detect
them which probably was a habit with the Apostle. When I hear a good
man lamenting his faults, I know what the world will say–they will
take him at his word and think that he is as they are. Whereas with
every godly man if you knew him and marked his life and conversation,
you would be compelled, if you judged him candidly, to say that he was
like Job–perfect and upright, one that feared God and eschewed evil.

Yet that very man would be the first to see spots in himself because he
has more light than others–because he has a higher idea of what
holiness is than others–and chiefly because he lives nearer to God
than others. He knows that God is so infinitely holy that the heavens
are not pure in His sight and He charged His angels with folly!
Therefore, everyone who sees himself in the glass of the Law sees in
himself a filthiness that he never saw before. As Job said, "I have
heard of You by the hearing of the ear: but now my eyes see You.
Therefore I abhor myself and repent in dust and ashes."

But I think the Apostle was not referring, here, to acts of gross
misdemeanor having brought him into captivity so far as he himself was
concerned, though many who are God's children get into sorry captivity
because the law of sin and death in their members gets the mastery over
them, sometimes. Oh, watch against this! Weep against this–I was about
to say wrestle unto blood against this! Brethren, they that have
committed great sins who have been God's children, though they have
been saved, have been saved so as by fire.

And if they could tell you how their very bones were broken, how the
Lord made them see that He hated sin in His own family even more than
anywhere else–if you could hear them confess how they lost the light
of His Countenance, lost enjoyments, lost the sweet savor of the
promises–oh, it would make you say, "My God, be pleased not only to
save me at the last but all the journey through! Hold up my footsteps
in Your way that they slip not! Make me to run in the way of Your
Commandments." It is a captivity like that of the Israelites in
Babylon, itself, when a child of God suffers to fall into some great
sin.

But, long before it comes to pass, and I hope in your case it may never
go so far, I think this law of sin brings us into captivity in other
respects. While you are fighting and contending against inbred sin,
doubts will invade your heart. "Am I a child of God?" If it is so, why
am I thus? I cannot pray as I would. Surely if I were a child of God I
should not be hampered in devotion or go out to a place of worship and
feel I have no enjoyment, while others feast and sing for joy of
heart." Oh, what a captivity the soul is brought into when it allows
inbred sin to cast any doubts upon its safety in Christ! Christ, having
been all our Confidence, is always in us the hope of Glory. To as many
as received Him, to them He gave power to become the sons of God, even
to as many as believed on His name.

If I have believed on His name, whatever my inward experience may
be–or may not be in my own estimation–if I have believed on the name
of Jesus I have the privilege to be a child of God. But sometimes
doubts will come over us and so we are brought into captivity. I have
known those who were almost driven to despair. The child of God has
written bitter things against himself and signed his own death warrant.
Thank God, even if we sign our own death warrant it does not stand for
anything! Nobody can sign that but the King and He will never sign it
for any soul that believes in Him, however feeble his love may be!

We may be brought into captivity by a sense of sin, a temptation to
sin, or a yielding to sin. If we ever come to that it will make us weak
in serving, cold in prayers when alone, and joyless in the society of
the saints. No, we shall feel almost lifeless. Oh, may God save us from
it! Oh, may we wrestle hard! May we wrestle every day that we may keep
sin down! May Divine Grace, even that Grace which is treasured up in
Christ Jesus, secure to us the victory!

III. It is some comfort when we feel a war within the soul, to remember
that it is an interesting phase of Christian experience. Such as are
dead in sin have never made proof of any of these things. Time was,
when we were self-righteous, lost, ruined and without the Law, sin was
dead in us, or so we thought. We were dead in trespasses and sins,
though we boasted of our own righteousness! These inward conflicts show
that we are alive. There is some life in the soul that hates sin–even
though it cannot do as it would.

I have known what it is to bless God for the times when my soul has
felt inward war and I would have been glad to feel the war renewed.
Rest assured that the strong man of the soul, while he keeps the house
will keep it in peace. It is when a stronger than he comes to eject him
that there is a fight within your soul. I would suggest, therefore, to
you that it is a cause for consolation and thankfulness. Do not be
depressed about it. Say, "after all, there is some life here." Where
there is pain there is life. The best of God's saints have suffered in
this very same manner. Your way to Heaven is not a bad one.

Some, I know, are not so troubled to any great extent, but the majority
of God's saints have to endure fights outside and fears within. You
read of Martin Luther. That great bold man became a master of theology
by being taught in the school of temptation. Even his last hours were
full of stern conflict. He was a man of war from his youth up. How
constantly did he have to contend against himself! We get the same
testimony from this chapter of the life of Paul. Be not, therefore,
downcast as though some strange thing had happened to you! Look up
yonder to those saints above in their white robes singing their
unending song! Ask them from where their victory came! They will tell
you that it did not come to them because they were sinless or perfect
in themselves, but through the blood of Jesus–

"Once they were wrestling here below, And wet their couch with tears.

They wrestled hard as we do now, With sins, with doubts and fears." The
richest consolation comes from the last verse of the chapter. Paul,
having asked how he should be delivered, answers the question "I thank
God through Jesus Christ our Lord." "They shall call His name Jesus,
for He shall save His people from their sins"–not only from the guilt
of their sins but from the power of their sins! What a mercy it is that
the Lord Jesus has struck a deadly blow at our sin! He has broken the
head of it. It is a monster and has immense vitality– but its back is
broken! Its legs are broken! It is a broken-headed monster! There it
is–it lies hissing and spitting, and writhing, capable of doing us
much mischief–but He that has wounded it will strike it again and
again, until at last it shall utterly die!

Thank God it has not vitality enough to get across the river Jordan. No
sinful desire shall ever swim on that stream! They are not molested
there with tendencies and propensities to sin–and when they shall be
restored to their bodies and their bodies shall rise again–they shall
have bodies not of flesh! Bodies of flesh shall not inherit the kingdom
of Heaven, neither shall their bodies see corruption! But bodies fit
for celestial minds, they shall be eternally free from their former
sin. Let us rejoice that Jesus Christ can do it all! He can save us
from all sin. He who has bought us with His blood, He will not cheaply
lose that which He has dearly bought! He will deliver us from all sin
and He will bring us into His eternal kingdom and Glory without fail!

So we fall back upon this sweet consolation. Though the fight may be
long and arduous, the result is not doubtful. Remember the text of last
Thursday night. That shall settle the point. "I give unto My sheep
eternal life, and they shall never perish, neither shall any pluck them
out of My hand." "My Father who gave them to Me is greater than all,
and none shall pluck them out of My Father's hand." You will have to
get to Heaven fighting sin every inch of the way, but you will get
there! Some on boards and some on broken pieces of the ship–they all
came safe to land in Paul's shipwreck–so shall it be with the saints.
When the sheep shall pass again under the hand of Him that counts them
one by one, there shall not be one of them missing!

They were all so weak that the wolf could have torn them in pieces.
They were all so foolish that if left to themselves they would have
wandered on the mountains and in the woods and have been destroyed. But
the eternal Shepherd makes this a point of honor–"Of all them that You
have given Me, I have lost none. Here am I, and the children that You
have given Me." It ought to make you quite well, now, to know that you
are sure of victory! Oh, by the lilies of the love of Christ, and by
the strong right arm that once smote Rahab and cut the dragons in two,
let every Christian be of good courage! The Omnipotent is with us! The
Invincible is for us!

Forward to the charge, onward to the conflict, though the fight waxes
warmer and sterner! Onward forever! Onward without fear or a moment's
hesitation! "He that has loved us bears us through and makes us more
than conquerors, too." "The breaker is come up before them. They have
broken up and have passed through the gate, and are gone out by it, and
their King shall pass before them and the LORD on the head of them."
They have put to the route their foes! Thus shall it be spoken of all
those that follow under the leadership of Christ! This is the heritage
of the saints and their righteousness is of Me, says the Lord. God
grant us to be victors in this holy war for Christ's sake. Amen.
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